being a woman today with a moulin rouge twist...
so humm...
i once was apart of the association where we shared our wallowing hearts and sorrows. i often embarked on this similar journey where lonely girls everywhere embraced each other with similar stories and tried to make sense of their eternal bleeding hearts. i believe i was president of this association. maybe a founding member. now i gaze from the outside wondering how i got there. oh yeah...the best thing that ever happened to me walked into my life...
(now this part may make you toss your cookies...but i urge you to keep reading...it proves an excellent point)
this man who i dearly call my best friend and so much more has proven the thematic tones of moulin rouge to ring true...
truth **beauty **freedom **love
and the greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return.
he is much more than i dreamed of and hoped for.
now this isn't an opportunity to gain favor within the eyes of this wonderful human...but to prove a very valid and true point.
in response to nikki's post. how many conversations have you and i had about this subject? it makes no sense in our simplistic minds to fathom this emotion. this acceptance. this love. or anticipation to attain what our heart so badly desires. but our God is a God of love. He loves us, and he created us to be lovers. it's ok to want love. its ok to feel passionate about finding someone. God designed this in you.
one entity i have expressed to you time and time again...and you may never understand it's validity (and that's natural) until later. but sweetness...it is worth the wait.
i take ownership in the mistakes i have made...and i truly believe it has allowed me to experience what i have now...and appreciate it more. but how beautiful is the picture when you find life's true love in a single experience. that's a beautiful picture...and in that i am envious.
by no means do i be little your heartache. i hurt for you. but please know this... you are a beautiful woman. and i'll be damned to allow you to believe otherwise. God designed you special and unique. for a purpose! how boring is everyone else? blah!
it's not true...blondes don't have more fun.
it really sucks to be a woman today. we are so self-depreciating and demeaning. but encouraging to our friends. weird?! i have an absolutely gorgeous friend who is close to 5 years younger than i. she lost weight and now i know will be picture perfect tomorrow for her wedding. and all i can think about is man i hate that bitch.
but seriously...instead of being happy for her and excited about what God is doing in her life, i instantly begin to compare why i can't be this way. and that sucks. but this is how society trains us to think. but screw society right? because when we were small we were taught that "god don't make no junk."
"i praise you because i am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, i know that full well." psalm 139:14
so nikki. so paula. i do not boast to know all the answers to all life's dating dilemmas and mysteries. by no means do i claim to have the answers. by the grace of God do i have what i have, and i learn something new everyday. and matter-of-fact i am actually a dating screw-up. know God has something for you. please excuse my cliche response... but wait for it.
cause i do know this...it is worth the wait. promise.
i once was apart of the association where we shared our wallowing hearts and sorrows. i often embarked on this similar journey where lonely girls everywhere embraced each other with similar stories and tried to make sense of their eternal bleeding hearts. i believe i was president of this association. maybe a founding member. now i gaze from the outside wondering how i got there. oh yeah...the best thing that ever happened to me walked into my life...
(now this part may make you toss your cookies...but i urge you to keep reading...it proves an excellent point)
this man who i dearly call my best friend and so much more has proven the thematic tones of moulin rouge to ring true...
truth **beauty **freedom **love
and the greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return.
he is much more than i dreamed of and hoped for.
now this isn't an opportunity to gain favor within the eyes of this wonderful human...but to prove a very valid and true point.
in response to nikki's post. how many conversations have you and i had about this subject? it makes no sense in our simplistic minds to fathom this emotion. this acceptance. this love. or anticipation to attain what our heart so badly desires. but our God is a God of love. He loves us, and he created us to be lovers. it's ok to want love. its ok to feel passionate about finding someone. God designed this in you.
one entity i have expressed to you time and time again...and you may never understand it's validity (and that's natural) until later. but sweetness...it is worth the wait.
i take ownership in the mistakes i have made...and i truly believe it has allowed me to experience what i have now...and appreciate it more. but how beautiful is the picture when you find life's true love in a single experience. that's a beautiful picture...and in that i am envious.
by no means do i be little your heartache. i hurt for you. but please know this... you are a beautiful woman. and i'll be damned to allow you to believe otherwise. God designed you special and unique. for a purpose! how boring is everyone else? blah!
it's not true...blondes don't have more fun.
it really sucks to be a woman today. we are so self-depreciating and demeaning. but encouraging to our friends. weird?! i have an absolutely gorgeous friend who is close to 5 years younger than i. she lost weight and now i know will be picture perfect tomorrow for her wedding. and all i can think about is man i hate that bitch.
but seriously...instead of being happy for her and excited about what God is doing in her life, i instantly begin to compare why i can't be this way. and that sucks. but this is how society trains us to think. but screw society right? because when we were small we were taught that "god don't make no junk."
"i praise you because i am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, i know that full well." psalm 139:14
so nikki. so paula. i do not boast to know all the answers to all life's dating dilemmas and mysteries. by no means do i claim to have the answers. by the grace of God do i have what i have, and i learn something new everyday. and matter-of-fact i am actually a dating screw-up. know God has something for you. please excuse my cliche response... but wait for it.
cause i do know this...it is worth the wait. promise.
Amanda, great thoughts. I know it's addressed to females, but I think it was excellent. Owning up to mistakes can be so difficult, I know. I'm going through that myslef. But as well as difficult, if we don't do it, it becomes dangerous. If we don't own up, we'll just do the same things over. My prayers are definately for you and your "significant other."
Posted by
Jeffrey |
9:53 AM
One more thing.. Nikki and Paula... You are both amazingly beautiful and true women of God. If guys don't like those two things, why the hell would you want them... I feel like I'm being a Will right now.. PEACE
Posted by
Jeffrey |
9:55 AM
you are so right my friend...these girls are amazingly beautiful. and talented. a true catch for a very lucky man. we just need to remind them of this. you are beautiful! inside and out!
and also, thank you for the encouragement. it's all a process isn't it? i'm learning.
Posted by
aca |
10:01 AM
Preach it sista! It's hard sitting out on the comparison game. I'm guilty of playing but I'm beginning to realize what an invaluable prize we each are. It takes time to get over the lies we're fed but can you imagine what will happen once we are full after feeding on the truth!? Yeah buddy!
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Alyzzle |
1:31 AM
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