Monday, October 31, 2005

happy halloween yo.




so this was from our pumpkin party last year...it is one of my fav holiday pics. enjoy.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

it's a chocolate thing.

i jumped on the blue like jazz bandwagon...to see for myself what it is all about.

my favorite quote so far...

"We would eat chocolates and smoke cigarettes and read the Bible, which is the only way to do it, if you ask me. Don, the Bible is so good with chocolate. I always thought the Bible was more of a salad thing, you know, but it isn't. It's a chocolate thing."

pretty sweet huh?

Monday, October 24, 2005

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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

pumpkin crunch cake...poor pumpkin.



pumpkin crunch cake

1 (1 pound 13 ounce) can pumpkin
3 eggs, beaten
1 can evaporated milk
3/4 cup sugar
1 teaspoon cinnamon
1 box yellow cake mix
1 cup walnuts, chopped
1/2 cup butter, melted
1 (8 ounce) package cream cheese, softed
1/2 cup powdered sugar
3/4 cup cool whip

preheat oven to 350 degrees. Line a 9" x 13" pan (i used a bunt cake pan) with waxed paper. in a large bowl, mix pumpkin, eggs, milk, sugar and cinnamon until well blended. pour into pan over waxed paper. sprinkle box of cake mix over top. pat walnuts over cake, then spoon melted butter over all. bake 50 to 60 minutes; cool.

combine cream cheese with powdered sugar and beat until smooth. fold in cool whip.

after cake has cooled (make sure you wait for it to cool...don't be impatient like me), turn out onto serving dish and remove waxed paper. frost with cream cheese frosting and refrigerate. serve chilled.

it's so fabulous. it tastes like a cross between pumpkin pie and dump cake. enjoy.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

headphones

i don't need them... just heard them...you?




















[ headphones ]

david from pedro the lion's new band..you should try it.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Insecurities 101

the moving truck came today. that's great. except we can't move around any where! we can't even walk. can someone tell me where to begin? please? or anyone looking for a break to come do it for me? he he...

texas...or should i say houston..is treating us grand. houston does not feel like texas. or what i thought texas would be like. it is cooling off now...it's only 90 degrees today. not too bad.

i started my new job last week. i am co-teaching for a kids day out program. it's been fine. i am quickly becoming trained in early childhood. a good form of birth control i tell you.

i haven't been able to see a doctor since i've been here...and i stopped taking my supplements. actually i stopped about 3 weeks ago. i ran out of the "good stuff" and i haven't been able to replace it yet. i bought a higher milligram on our honeymoon but it was making me really sick...so i stopped. i haven't had any really bad days...hopefully i won't...it will be nice to finally see a doctor and become "normal". the worse of it yet...bad moods come on without notice and i can't get out of them. then poor jasen and to sit and wondering what he did wrong. but it wasn't him. it usually isn't.

i guess i can steam these "mood adjustments" from my thoughts. just like dr henslin said. i usually start thinking of my friends..and how they have moved on without me. and i can't get it out of my head. i know i could solve these problems by just making a few phone calls...but i can't seem to dial. my thoughts continuously lead me to believe people are mad at me...and they don't care. and everybody loves jasen and i's just "her".

"good christians" would tell me "satan has a foothold of your brain." and if i didn't go through my testing i would have believed it to be true. but i know better now. it's more than that.

most days i am fine...but lately i am so insecure. insecure jasen is loved and i am forgotten. is it true? no. but these are the thought which have consumed my mind...my life most recently.

have i been terrible? i am so sorry if i have. i have a million thank yous...and ten million IOU's. i can't repay them. so all of you...you know who you are. and i know you care for me...that is why you did it. but why can't i be normal and remember.

ahhh.

so there it is: insecurities 101.

i know i don't deserve it...but will you help remind me sometimes when i forget?