what i should be doing i'm not...and what i'm not doing i should be doing...
today was the first day i was able to catch up on many of blogs...
humm...
the first blog i come to is jasen's. and i it saddened me.
it's hard to listen to how "perfect" life is in north carolina. how many connections he is making...how much he enjoys church. and i all i could focus on was the word "i". and i thought to myself...what about me? why am i missing all of this? why am i upset now?
then i read ryan's blog. and i feel guilty.
because i am so bloody selfish i could puke.
here am i...worried about how i will pay for a wedding...when there these lovely people are in Thailand wondering how they will take care of their families.
here i am saddened by jasen's have a great life without me...when these lovely people are living life without half their families for good.
why don't i use my time better? why don't i care about people more? why don't i listen to God more often?
thank you ryan and holly. thank you for being used and serving. you are a true example to me what life and chrisitanity are in this real world. if you move...well we will talk.
jasen...I love you…and I know you would have it differently if you could.
humm...
the first blog i come to is jasen's. and i it saddened me.
it's hard to listen to how "perfect" life is in north carolina. how many connections he is making...how much he enjoys church. and i all i could focus on was the word "i". and i thought to myself...what about me? why am i missing all of this? why am i upset now?
then i read ryan's blog. and i feel guilty.
because i am so bloody selfish i could puke.
here am i...worried about how i will pay for a wedding...when there these lovely people are in Thailand wondering how they will take care of their families.
here i am saddened by jasen's have a great life without me...when these lovely people are living life without half their families for good.
why don't i use my time better? why don't i care about people more? why don't i listen to God more often?
thank you ryan and holly. thank you for being used and serving. you are a true example to me what life and chrisitanity are in this real world. if you move...well we will talk.
jasen...I love you…and I know you would have it differently if you could.
Ok I havent read Jasens so youre on your own there. But I have religiously read Ryan and Hollys and its so inspiring. And also makes me want to ship all of my worldly belongings over there. I have enough stuff.
I love people that inspire me to be better. I want to be that person one day.
Also thanks for your note on my blog a few weeks back. Im the cool girl??!
Sorry things have been rough with Jasen away and the wedding planning stress. I swear Im skipping all that. I might blow up at someone over centerpieces and there what would I do?
Hope todays a good day for you.
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