Saturday, May 28, 2005

arrivals!

the absolute love of my life is coming in

36 HOURS!!!!!!!

man i need to get busy so time will go back faster!

and i will see nikki soon too! and that kyle guy!

but jasen is coming in 36 hours!

did i say that already?

Saturday, May 21, 2005

173

i passed the praxis...

yeah!

certification here i come.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

and the moral of the story is...

here are 2 different stories we read in our readers today...

story 1

The Fox and the Crab

A little crab said to his mother, "I would like to go across the field up to that shining sand."

"Your place is here in the water," snapped the mother crab.

"But it looks so pleasant up there in the sun!" pleaded the little crab.

"A fox will catch you if you go on land," snapped the mother again.

"But I want to go," sulked the little crab, and off he went.

How nice and warm it was! How the sand shone in the sunlight!

"Oh!" said the fox coming along just then. "Here is my breakfast all ready for me!"

Crack! Crack! Went the crab's thin shell. Soon there was no crab at all.

But there was a fox with a nice breakfast just eaten.

(located in the bottom of the page) The Bible Says: "Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the Lord thy God giveth thee." -Exodus 20:12

story 2

The Stag at the Lake

One hot day, a stag came to a lake to drink.

The water was so clear that he could see himself in it.

"Oh, what beautiful antlers I have!" he cried. "How strong and how graceful they are! And they spread out like the branches of a tree! But what homely legs I have! So long and so thin!"

Just then the stag heard the horn of the hunters.

Away flew the stag. How swiftly his long legs carried him!

But the beautiful antlers caught in a tree. And before he could get them free, the hunters caught up with him.

"These miserable antlers!" cried he, as the hunters shot him. "I was so proud of them, but they have been the death if me."

(On the bottom of the page) The Bible Says: "Pride goeth before destruction." -Proverbs 16:18

well I hope you have learned as much as we have today.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

faith..hum...that's what it's called.

i have never been any good at it. i worry.

i always worry.

i was driving home from work on friday...and thoughts of leaving my job made me so sad. not because i am sad to move on...but i will miss them so much.

marrying jasen will be one of the most amazing moments in my short history. i am so excited to build dreams together in north carolina...and see how our story unfolds.

but i have no job yet. and here i have 3. don't get me wrong...0 is much better than 3...but unfortunately you do have to continue paying bills even though you change your last name. they find you. they always find you.

so many questions unanswered... was september the best time for us to pick? school has started already...so i may not be able to get a job teaching...i haven't found out about my praxis scores yet...so i may not be able to teach even if i do make it in time.

what am i even qualified to do besides teaching?

hum....i am healthy...i have a good relationship with my family...i have an amazing fiance. it is teacher appreciation week. ponderosa pines finally got a website. so those are great things..

so how do i trust more? God has brought me this far...and i know huge things await us.

it's all going to be ok...right?

Sunday, May 08, 2005

lazy sundays...and happy mothers...



this is one of my most favorite new pictures of us...

it is strange to think he was with me a week ago...and now sundays alone...

but it's okay...no complaints.

surprise surprise.

i can't believe that in a little more than a month...i will be moving. from one roommate to 20.

oh man... i am getting too old for this.

but thank you God for lazy sundays. and that i will be back to one roommate so enough...

i wonder what it's like to live with a boy other than a brother...

we all know it will be smelly. sorry jasen...but everybody knows it anyway.

but fabulous i am sure.

Monday, May 02, 2005

why is it so hard to admit you were wrong or maybe that isn't it after all...

so i have lived a life of openness and acceptance...now i am lost in hurt and anger.

i have never had a person in my life where i felt so much hurt and distain...now i think i have shared this opinion for several people.

who am i?

and why are my friends allowing these feelings to be justified?

and now what do i do?

i know you are going to tell me to swallow the pride and get over myself...

and i if you are reading this...and you know those i am referencing...it makes me feel even more horrible...cause i have talked about it aloud...

oh man.