tomorrow a new point of view...

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so i started this on line diary to clear my name.

ben has changed his blog to rid his name off the internet airwaves...so for curiosity sake...i decided to type my name in google...

yep...just what i thought. the first 20 links...all refer to amanda shilling the "too tall for a normal woman...school teacher with a "bad" side."

confused? hopefully you should be. and don't go looking for this stuff. there is nothing you would want to see there.

so i am in the clear. my true identity has been stolen by an "adult" movie expert.

whew!

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finally.... click here

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kidding.

i love you jasen. he does not hold a candle to you. never. never.

now...one thing that has always irked me...this statement...

"i'm just too busy".

i have always thought...hummm...you actually are never TOO busy for something...because if you really wanted it...you would make time for it.

but i have become this person. too busy for friends...to busy for going to bed on time...to busy to make dynamic lessons for my class so they won't drive me bonkers all day cause we are stuck inside because of the rain. whew.

but i do love them...but i am too tired to think about it.

and the sad thing. i haven't even started my class and winter camp.

i guess you can say that at least i'm not bored.

but of course i have "enough time" to accidentally buy $200 ugg boots on ebay.

don't ask...

Posted by aca at 12:14 AM | Permalink | Comments

we all can relate in one fashion or another...

get over yourself...you know that it is true.

two of my best friends...sara a and sarah b (yes their real names...well before they got married) have both recently called me to tell me they are having babies. well one a piece. and not with each other.

anyways.

and i am so excited and happy...but when i really think about it...i mean really really scratch my head and think about it...i wonder...is the world ready for it?

ummm...i think not.

sara a is one of the most thoughtful people i have met. she reminds me a lot of myself. but she has one of those shrills which make you want to run into oncoming traffic and pray you get hit. lets pray her baby isn't loud. or neurotic. but i guess who isn't.

sarah b is one of the most kind hearted and caring people i know. and funny. she could make you laugh...but mostly at herself. but she is crazy. like jump out of a suitcase naked crazy. lets pray her children don't get arrested. or beat up.

so it makes you wonder. we are our parents age. we are them. we are growing up...moving out...making a life for ourselves...continuing the cycle. i have it in my mind i will be better than...work harder then than...be happier then.

our god is still the same. what makes it different? goals? ambitions? lack of contentment? i love my parents...be am i ready to be them?

but am i ready? is sarah? is sara? are you?

it will all work out.

trust.
hope.
faith.

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