you know when you are supposed to be happy? cause when you're not people ask you what's wrong?
maybe it's just me. i never acquired the ability to hide it.
and my life is good. i got a new car. i gained a new fiance.
but my heart is so sad. maybe it's because i haven't had the opportunity to spend time with him since we got engaged. maybe it's because he will be leaving 11 days after he returns.
so the advice...look at the big picture. in eight months you'll be married.
yes...and i can not wait to be his wife.
but i have no money for a wedding. my parents have no money for a wedding.
the pressure is too much.
i need to sleep. i think i need a day off. i need to be with the one i love.
and if i were a "good christian" girl...i would be thankful for all the things i do have...and don't need.
but right now. i am sad. and tired.
and miss jasen...can you come home now? so we can be engaged in person?