god is good.
when i was growing up our pastor would say..."god is good!" and the people would say, "all the time!" hummm...i always wondered if i was able to challenge that statement. sometimes in my heart i wouldn't feel like god was good. to me...to others...and i wondered why we are made to chant it and repeat it when we don't always believe it.
it sure is easy to like god when things are good. but things aren't always good are they? then i think about my relationship with jasen. if jasen were upset with me i wouldn't want him to constantly tell me how good i am... i would want him to tell me how i made him feel...i would want to share and then we would grow. i guess god's like that...i'm not supposed to be robotic in my answers to him...and say he is good...when i may feel like he's not.
i guess we get by when things are hard by remembering how good god was before and how you know it won't always be hard. a month ago after we put the house up for sale...we started having these little problems with our buyer. nothing HUGE but enough to get you going. and as you know, i have high anxiety so whew...it was rough. jasen kept telling me it was all apart of it and it would work out. god brought us this far...he will take care of the details. and i said, (i am ashamed to admit) i feel like i can't trust him...it's too hard this time.
now obviously i can not think like god...but i think he appreciated my honesty. and i think he appreciated jasen's honesty...cause i know that's what he truly felt. i don't think he wants us to lie over and play dead. he wants us to share our HONEST thoughts.
i know i don't deserve it...but man we are blessed. every detail was worked out and i think i may have only had one (minor) panic attack. huge things are in store...we really feel an honor to be along this journey and be apart of what he is doing. we have always wanted to be in a place where we could give back, and i think god is leading us there.
what exciting times there are ahead.
it sure is easy to like god when things are good. but things aren't always good are they? then i think about my relationship with jasen. if jasen were upset with me i wouldn't want him to constantly tell me how good i am... i would want him to tell me how i made him feel...i would want to share and then we would grow. i guess god's like that...i'm not supposed to be robotic in my answers to him...and say he is good...when i may feel like he's not.
i guess we get by when things are hard by remembering how good god was before and how you know it won't always be hard. a month ago after we put the house up for sale...we started having these little problems with our buyer. nothing HUGE but enough to get you going. and as you know, i have high anxiety so whew...it was rough. jasen kept telling me it was all apart of it and it would work out. god brought us this far...he will take care of the details. and i said, (i am ashamed to admit) i feel like i can't trust him...it's too hard this time.
now obviously i can not think like god...but i think he appreciated my honesty. and i think he appreciated jasen's honesty...cause i know that's what he truly felt. i don't think he wants us to lie over and play dead. he wants us to share our HONEST thoughts.
i know i don't deserve it...but man we are blessed. every detail was worked out and i think i may have only had one (minor) panic attack. huge things are in store...we really feel an honor to be along this journey and be apart of what he is doing. we have always wanted to be in a place where we could give back, and i think god is leading us there.
what exciting times there are ahead.
