the acting president for the jasen ashdown fan club...the post for stacey.
so i owe her an apology...
i never knew what true love was until i met the most amazing man in the world. i lived in a clouded depiction of love...but never saw its value...its importance. i had heard it one time before...and if that was what love was...i wanted no part of it. love=hurt. no thank you.
but i have been won over...to say the least.
then there is jasen who loves me more than i can understand. he loves the camp amanda...the morning amanda...the teacher amanda and the bipolar amanda. and i truly believe he makes no distinction.
many of times since i started my online diary have i wanted to just type and type of what i feel and how i love this man. but i am aware everyone reads this...and no one really cares...even though i am the acting president to the jasen ashdown fan club.
i am sorry i may have dishearted you. i should encourage you and support you to fight for love and what you believe in. cause i do. and even though jasen isn't away often...may heart craves for his return...so i can't imagine that constant drowning and ache. i hurt for you...but i must say...you are doing the best with what you have been delt. and i commend you for it.
jasen and i are so encouraged by your and jeff's relationship. long distance relationships suck. no way around it. but you two are fighting for it...and it is again commendable to see the lengths and efforts you have brought forth to make it work. so if i can encourage and strengthen you in anyway...i will.
i never knew what true love was until i met the most amazing man in the world. i lived in a clouded depiction of love...but never saw its value...its importance. i had heard it one time before...and if that was what love was...i wanted no part of it. love=hurt. no thank you.
but i have been won over...to say the least.
then there is jasen who loves me more than i can understand. he loves the camp amanda...the morning amanda...the teacher amanda and the bipolar amanda. and i truly believe he makes no distinction.
many of times since i started my online diary have i wanted to just type and type of what i feel and how i love this man. but i am aware everyone reads this...and no one really cares...even though i am the acting president to the jasen ashdown fan club.
i am sorry i may have dishearted you. i should encourage you and support you to fight for love and what you believe in. cause i do. and even though jasen isn't away often...may heart craves for his return...so i can't imagine that constant drowning and ache. i hurt for you...but i must say...you are doing the best with what you have been delt. and i commend you for it.
jasen and i are so encouraged by your and jeff's relationship. long distance relationships suck. no way around it. but you two are fighting for it...and it is again commendable to see the lengths and efforts you have brought forth to make it work. so if i can encourage and strengthen you in anyway...i will.
Amanda,
As you know from the voice mail Stace left you, we aren't harboring hatred. :) I love you and Jasen and know that your intent was good fun. I guess it was just bad timing for Stace and I to see it. Thanks for apologizing though. We love you
Posted by
Jeffrey |
2:14 AM
Amanda,
Thank you. So I may be getting more emotional than you because that made my eyes well up...our poor boyfriends. You know I love you and dont hate you for what you said, but like jeff said...bad timing. Any other time i can take a joke, but for some reason yesterday i couldn't. it's not your fault. anyways, the apology and the encouragement mean a lot. i dont really think there's anything anybody can do to take away the hurt of 400 miles, except to be listening ears to us both when we need it and to continue to support us with emotion and friendship...and you guys have already done that. Thank you...and dont be a stranger to the phone, or we can just keep doing it this way. As long as we chat and keep up, i dont care what the source of communication is. Love you girl.
Posted by
stacey |
2:23 AM
how do i sign up for the jasen ashdown fanclub?
Posted by
Alyzzle |
6:47 PM
Where do we sign up??? ohh, can I be publiciy? or have some cool name.. like Executive director of the hoochies and ho's, or how about "Interm in the of office of the presidency of the Jasen Ashdizo fan club?
just a thought!
Posted by
KS |
8:47 PM
im president of the amada shilling fan club and we have just reached over on thousand members... you know sometimes i pretend im in a long distance relationship also i mean the distance is a little longer like we havent met yet but its distance non the less
Posted by
fountainstylerootbeer |
9:18 AM
im president of the amada shilling fan club and we have just reached over on thousand members... you know sometimes i pretend im in a long distance relationship also i mean the distance is a little longer like we havent met yet but its distance non the less
Posted by
fountainstylerootbeer |
9:18 AM
im president of the amada shilling fan club and we have just reached over on thousand members... you know sometimes i pretend im in a long distance relationship also i mean the distance is a little longer like we havent met yet but its distance non the less
Posted by
fountainstylerootbeer |
9:18 AM
im president of the amada shilling fan club and we have just reached over on thousand members... you know sometimes i pretend im in a long distance relationship also i mean the distance is a little longer like we havent met yet but its distance non the less
Posted by
fountainstylerootbeer |
9:18 AM